Watch Out! Confusion Ahead!
I did something totally spontaneous on Saturday morning. I went hunting for a job in Phoenix.
This is my dilemma. I really love living in New England. I like my little house and the life I've built around me here, my job is going pretty well and I've started school and am looking forward to actually finishing my master's degree this time.
The problem is my mum is ill. Her mental capacity is slowly fading, and the cold plain truth is her time left is more limited than most people. I would love to spend some more time with her and also with my sister and my nephews and that just isn't going to happen when I'm 2,700 miles away from them.
All my life I've sort of rushed into things and really I need to think this one through. I feel very drawn to spending time with my family, but I also can't help to think that I'm in a good spot for myself and I'm finally turning my lazy ass around and fixing my life up.
I feel really good about my accomplishments over the past couple of years. I've had my share of mistakes (ahem, I'll still forget to balance my check book sometimes). But for the most part I at least try to live on a semblance of a budget and I no longer believe that if I have a check, I have money...But that's another story for another time :)
So I toss this back and forth. I think I'll take some time to really think about it, mull it over and make sure that its the best thing to do. For as much as I would absolutely love to see my family more, it would be a huge sacrifice for me to uproot my life again.
Until I decide then...
This is my dilemma. I really love living in New England. I like my little house and the life I've built around me here, my job is going pretty well and I've started school and am looking forward to actually finishing my master's degree this time.
The problem is my mum is ill. Her mental capacity is slowly fading, and the cold plain truth is her time left is more limited than most people. I would love to spend some more time with her and also with my sister and my nephews and that just isn't going to happen when I'm 2,700 miles away from them.
All my life I've sort of rushed into things and really I need to think this one through. I feel very drawn to spending time with my family, but I also can't help to think that I'm in a good spot for myself and I'm finally turning my lazy ass around and fixing my life up.
I feel really good about my accomplishments over the past couple of years. I've had my share of mistakes (ahem, I'll still forget to balance my check book sometimes). But for the most part I at least try to live on a semblance of a budget and I no longer believe that if I have a check, I have money...But that's another story for another time :)
So I toss this back and forth. I think I'll take some time to really think about it, mull it over and make sure that its the best thing to do. For as much as I would absolutely love to see my family more, it would be a huge sacrifice for me to uproot my life again.
Until I decide then...
posted by Abe Froman at 10:19 AM
2 Comments:
Good luck with that one....
But I say get your ass down here :)
*sigh*...if only it were that easy.
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